Change. We all go through it. We all complain about it. We all beg for it. But...
Lately, I have been experiencing constant and consistent change. It has been painful and difficult and joyful by turns; I've had to allow myself to change so as to be more fully myself. Not so easy, but I believe you know that. I'm fairly sure this is a human experience into which we all delve. I'm also fairly certain we respond to the "opportunity" (scare quotes because the impetus is sometimes shit," in a different way. Sometimes our fear has us, humans, doubling down into our misery and habits. Sometimes we get brave and respond by changing ourselves.
This experience has had me thinking about how the various facets of my life and world respond to change, be it forced or planned. Yoga tends towards this acceptance point of view. Just as within asana, sit with the pain and struggle, accept it for what it is. The art sets itself into dissecting and expressing the change. Getting deep and messy into "all the feels" so as to explore the struggle more forcefully. The planner (because I am a #planneraddict) starts to organize in the most hardcore way possible.
Since all of this is me, I discover myself pulled in a variety of directions. I must need to find balance. So, I design a planner to suit my needs and get artsy AF with it. I start in on some deep meal planning and prep once a week. I start drawing things in new ways and with new mediums. I let the themes that pop up happen. And, I yoga like there is no tomorrow, adding in some martial arts inspiration for flavor.
What is it that comes up during your times of change? Or, what is coming up now? How do you allow (#yin) an experience to happen and progress but still press and lean in (#yang) where you need?
We humans go through so much and, for me, it's the art and the yoga and the planning that is my grounding. But, I can't be permissive in letting those grounding factors take over. I must (I find that we all must) create space for the rest of life... the fun, the silly, the ridiculous things that keep us sane.
And with that, I'm changing. Evolving. I'm going to be revisiting my offerings and changing up my work. I need to be authentic in what I give out.
Stay tuned for change.
Jocelynne Lowans is an animated Yogini-Artist on a mission to deepen the creative experience and growth of the world while remaining a crazy cat lady.